note: i started writing this post on 2024-09-14, i’m writing this as i go on, the pub date isn’t reflective of when i actually wrote this post, i decided to just write more overtime instead of do this in one go

i’ve always had a slight interest in MMOs, i often used to go and find some mmos but never found anything worth trying out, the few i did try (ffxiv and gw2) felt a bit overwhelming and honestly? i’m here to talk to poeple and make friends, and these all feel very hard to do that in bc of my social anxiety.

the mindset shift that helped me with mmos and life in general

but i think something important to this journey, but also to my life in general, was this video by josh strife hayes:

what mmo should you play by josh strife hayes on youtube

josh makes a point around 2 minutes into the video talking about how people usually go “which mmo should i play” implying you only commit to one for the rest of your life. and he talks about how this desire to get into something with the goal of making it your personality is not only a massive commitment but also makes it a toxic relationship you have with that thing.

i’ve realised this for myself, i do this with a lot of things other than games. and it often cuases me a lot of issues, especially with me picking something up, not getting that much into it but feeling forced to stay with it, causing me to burn out on things more, i need to be more casual with these things.

now? i avoid spending hours researching to pick something up. i try, it’s not easy, but i try.

eitherway, none of this is the point of this post though

the games

i decided to try a few games and give them a few hours and see how i feel. here’s how i feel about the games i play

palia

palia is lovely, it’s a game i played a few months ago when it was first made public and i quite liked it, i gave up on it bc i realised it’s not the social mmo i thought it was. but now i’ve picked it up again and while i’ve forgotten how to play it, but for the most part i still think this is a nice comfy game

it isn’t however the high fantasy vibe i really want from an mmo, i want that feeling of being lost in a fantasy world, one that feels like a more traditioanl high fantasy world. palia is first and foremost a cozy game, the mmorpg vibes on this game are quite light. i’ll definitely play more of this but for now i’ll try some other things

RIFT

ah rift. this ones funny. i download the EU server version, NA is too far from me and there’s only two main servers anyway

i download it. i get into it.

the serers are empty

not exagerrating, there are ZERO players online.


beautiful.

i also couldn’t make my character because it told me… i can’t? i dont know why, it won’t let me. the character creation was also glitchy and lacklustre. what’s the point in this? i gave up.

the same publisher has another game, but from what i understand, gamigo has a reputation of buying games and ruining them, so i’m probably just gonna give up on this publisher? maybe?